Hello to all today:

How is everyone? Boy I feel out of touch with you guys! I need to seriously take some time and catch up with what's been going on here in our little home!

I've just been sooooooo busy. With a best-friend's birthday, a boyfriend's Christmas Party, finals at school, and just the ends and out of everyday life I feel like I've been burnt out.

But it's all almoost done now, and I will back to normal very soon!

I love you guys and miss you all dearly, but I promise I will back soon!!!

Thanks for stopping by:
Nik

Hello to all:

I just wanted to let everyone know I will be missing for the next few days.

Usually, I miss the weekend posts, but I am going with a friend to Mississippi. Then I have to write a paper, and another friend is having a Birthday, and then there's Boyfriends Christmas party.

I will be back soon. I hope everyone has a very positive next few days.

Also, wish me luck with emotions, lately they are just spilling over....

Thanks for stopping by
Nik

Hello to all today

Well today I have made myself a little confused!

There seems to be so much that I wish I could say, but for some reason it's too hard to come clean with really personal emotions!

Why is that? Why is it that I want to open up, but then are things that I fear will push others away? I feel like if I write on paper how I feel...then there will be those who judge me?

Maybe because I've been drinking and I think I will regret what I say. Most of the time when one drinks there are true emotions that one is able to say because the restrictions that one feels are free. When you have such strong emotions, you want to release them. Mostly because they will set the true feelings free. However, many times most emotions are best kept to oneself. Because of the fear that many locked down emotions...the emotions that keep fear in the heart...scare people.

Why are people scared of emotions? Why do we restrict the dark side of love? Why do we fear the unknown? Sometimes I wish I could just take the jump to my inner child. The part that has no fear. Fear grips our emotions many times. Fear keeps us on the safe side of the street.

How do we free ourselves? Why is it so hard to hurt the ones close to us, just so we remain in confusion. How many times I wish I had the strength to let go.

I think I need advice. Please feel free to comment on this one! I could really use advice...please I am truely confused.

Thanks for stopping by
Nik

Hello to all today:



Smileys!!! Too cool! So how was everyone's weekend? Mine was GREAT! Had another lovely weekend. Isn't it nice when one has friends and lovers who take the time to spend with you? I know I love it!

Today it's cold and hard to stay out of bed! I've been cleaning and now I think I will start one of my two papers due for finals this week, and next week.

Hope all is well

And thanks for stopping by
Nik

Hello to all:

I feel after reading the comments to the post that I finished yesterday, I need to clear the air.

I never had to deal with domestic violence. That story I wrote was for my speech class. I had to write an intro to a domestic violence speech I'm preparing.

I am so sorry I did not tell that in the post. But, the post was long and by the time I was done I was a little tired. Thanks for the support, but I am not the one who suffers.

BTW Do you know that 1 in 4 people are abused or live with an abuser? Pretty scary stuff...

Thanks for stopping by
Nik